For Bingotella


Sometimes I miss having Bingo playing around me while I study, it was the hardest year in high school, when my mom was out of town and I was alone dealing with exams ,fighting to beat that year , at the end of that year I remember I was fighting with myself to even open the book to study.
I missed how Bingo used to jump on the couch and set in my lap or how he sneaks suddenly in the kitchen and I hear the world war III going on there but then it turns out that he was just trying to open the pot of  soap and eat from it. 
I miss when he jumps on my bed to sleep next to me. He always preferred my bed. I remember his first night in our home and I was very excited, I was up all night couldn't believe that there is a cat in my bed and his eyes were kinda frightening that night. A very naughty cat but I just loved him so much. 
   
Later on we got the queen "Nutella" a beautiful white cat who was a really savage girl. I miss her jumping from the living room to the kitchen because she heard the sound of me going to get her food. We actually didn't need an alarm to wake up she did fine waking up all of us including the neighbors.

My sister loved to spend time with her the most also because it was a good reason not to study or do her homework. I remember I couldn't ever give her a bath ,my sister on the other hand loved to do it and loved how savage she gets during it, I mean how a 5 months cat get that violent for god's sake.
 



 

Farewell beautiful Bingotella.

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