Mood swings

 I wasn't ever a fan of rock music, always thought it's too high for me. I didn't like the high notes or drums sound much but recently I began to like it and I actually enjoy the high sounds and that rocking voices. It's so strange to me but I like how every once in a while I attach myself to some kind of music, sometimes the pop, sometimes the classic and other days I just listen to symphonies of Bach and Mozart. Some other days I listen to Turkish , french or Spanish and Sometimes German , yeah even German!!

But I really like these moods swings that involve all kinds of music. it gets weird sometimes but what i get that it is really just phases of a person's life. Life is all about a phase and music that goes with it.

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